So Long, Farewell… (For Now)

IMG_6855 This summer was the best, most intense time of my life.  Living in Spain…words cannot even begin to describe how amazing it was. Once I got back, I can’t tell you how many times I brought up my blog and just stared at it. All the posts I started ended up being deleted…not for lack of events to write about, but because the words just would come.

I love this blog, I loved being able to write, and share, and connect with people. But now I am at a place in my life where I am craving privacy. I realize how very much I cannot put my heart thoughts completely into words. I will leave my blog here because even though I haven’t been writing, it has still be useful to people around the world.

Who knows…maybe someday, maybe soon, I will begin writing again.

We’ll see.



October 26, 2009 at 2:29 pm Leave a comment

I Will Go

Give me ears to hear Your Spirit
Give me feet to follow through
Give me hands to touch the hurting
And the faith to follow You

Give me grace to be a servant
Give me mercy for the lost
Give me passion for Your glory
Give me passion for the cross

And I will go where there are no easy roads
Leave the comforts that I know
I will go and let this journey be my home
I will go
I will go

I’ll let go of my ambition
Cut the roots that run too deep
I will learn to give away
What I cannot really keep
What I cannot really keep

Help me see with eyes of faith
Give me strength to run this race

I will go Lord where Your glory is unknown
I will live for You alone
I will go because my life is not my own
I will go
I will go
I will go

~ Steve Green

As I get ready to take the biggest step of my life, so many people are amazed that a young person would consider going across the world on their own. I get nervous when I think about it too hard, because this is WAY outside my comfort zone. I love my family, my friends who know me the best, and I love being able to eat my favorite food. But just like this song says, I will go where there are no easy roads. I will fly across the world by my lonesome (AH!), live in a country that I will be a foreigner to, and do hard things. I want God to take away my indepence on myself, and teach me to fully rely on Him. Hopefully  “I’ll let go of my ambition, cut the roots that run too deep, I will learn to give away, what I cannot really keep.” I want this journy, this change, this step of faith more than anything else I’ve ever wanted. I will make this journey my home.

June 23, 2009 at 9:07 am 1 comment

Live, Laugh, Love…

Allie (10 of 10)“All this and Heaven too.” That quote has come to my mind many times these last few months. The dark nights make the sunshine seem that much more golden. The last few months have been filled with living, laughing, and loving.

 Days that follow a wonderfully simple pattern, filled with everything that makes the little moments beautiful. Laughing at the crazy things my kids say or do. Laughing when that was the only option besides getting frustrated. Laughing silently when my babies tested me or someone else, and then made the cutest, cutest face ever.

 Loving my crazy afterschoolers. Loving my adorable pre-k girls who said they wanted to be (among other things) an elf, a “hawrstywist”, and (my personal favorite), a church-girl. Loving my stubborn four year olds, who say the funniest (and awkward) things. Loving my three year olds who always fight for space on my lap. Would you believe they can fit four of them on at one time?! Loving that they love doing my hair, talking to me instead of taking a nap, and most of all LOVE kissing me. Loving my oh so troublesome two and a half year olds, no matter how very much they try my soul. 🙂 Love, love, Loving my two year olds, who make my heart so full. Loving the little stubborn girl who gives the best hugs. Loving the cuddly little man who calls me BooBekah. Loving the mischevious little guy who always talks in the deepest voice you can imagine in a two year old. Loving my precious little girl who always shows me her shoes, her lovie, and her bows. Loving her because she finally loves me enough to let me do her hair without fussing 🙂 Loving doing her beautiful hair. Loving my little man who calls me Betta, and says the craziest things. Loving my sweet little boy with the beach boy haircut who never ever wants to let go of me. Loving my one year olds who have the most energy ever. Loving my babies. Loving my baby boy, even though he NEVER takes a nap. Loving his smile, loving his nose, loving his tiny hands, and loving his baby smell.

Living my days post-kiddos by relaxing. Living and enjoying the sunny Mondays at the river. Forgetting time and sitting simply on the big rock in the middle, talking with my wonderful sisterchicks. Laughing about life, and love. 🙂 Laughing at ourselves, and life. Loving these sunny days.

June 9, 2009 at 7:19 am 1 comment

He Hides a Smiling FAce

“God moves in a mysterious way
His wonders to perform;
He plants His footsteps in the sea
And rides upon the storm.

Deep in unfathomable mines
Of never failing skill
He treasures up His bright designs
And works His sovereign will.

Ye fearful saints, fresh courage take;
The clouds ye so much dread
Are big with mercy and shall break
In blessings on your head.

Judge not the Lord by feeble sense,
But trust Him for His grace;
Behind a frowning providence
He hides a smiling face.

His purposes will ripen fast,
Unfolding every hour;
The bud may have a bitter taste,
But sweet will be the flower.

Blind unbelief is sure to err
And scan His work in vain;
God is His own interpreter,
And He will make it plain.

Behind a frowning providence,

He hides a smiling face.”

~William Cowper

May 23, 2009 at 11:47 am Leave a comment

For Sale!

I am de-junking, cleaning out my closet, and raising money for Spain all at the same time!

FOR SALE: A size Large WholesomeWear Swimsuit!

I bought this swimsuit a few years ago when they were all the rage. It is made of a swimsuit style material underneath. The swimsuit material is styled in a scuba type outfit, with short sleeves and shorts (it’s all one piece). The outer layer is made of light board short type material, and can be snapped at the bottom to make shorts, or left open for a skirt style. While I don’t care for the style anymore, this swimsuit is amazing. It drys insanely fast! I used to take 5 minute walks after swimming all day and the outer layer would already be dry! It would make a great buy for anyone who hates struggling with the whole modesty issue but loves swimming! No more wearing t-shirts and baggy shorts. I’m selling it for $50, less than half what I paid for it originally. If you have any questions please contact me (!




(There is a tiny bit of wear at the top of the chest area, shown here)

May 10, 2009 at 4:52 am Leave a comment

My Life

*Whew!* This sums up my daily thought as I go to sleep each night. I have less than 2 months until I leave for Spain, and only 3 more weeks until I leave my job. I will miss my kiddos!!! My days until I leave for a much needed vacation in Florida are insanely PACKED. I have a list of photoshoots, dinners, trips across town, and much much more that fills an entire page. And all this in uh…4 weeks? Plus working 50 hours a week. Oh yeah. 🙂 Life is full, and I love it.

Recent events include…

GETTING MY NEW CAMERA 😀 It needs a name though, so any suggestions are more than welcome. My baby’s new shots are up on Pebbles Of Joy.

I took my last few shots with my stupid broken ridiculous old camera.




I am official a rebel girl 🙂


I am completely and utterly happy. And Busy. 🙂

May 10, 2009 at 4:38 am Leave a comment

Because He Lives

    erica-181_2He came to love, heal and forgive;
    He lived and died to buy my pardon,
    An empty grave is there to prove my Savior lives! 

    Because He lives, I can face tomorrow,
    Because He lives, all fear is gone;
    Because I know He holds the future,
    And life is worth the living,
    Just because He lives!

    How sweet to hold a newborn baby,
    And feel the pride and joy he gives;
    But greater still the calm assurance:
    This child can face uncertain days because He Lives!

    Because He lives, I can face tomorrow,
    Because He lives, all fear is gone;
    Because I know He holds the future,
    And life is worth the living,
    Just because He lives!

     And then one day, I’ll cross the river,
    I’ll fight life’s final war with pain;
    And then, as death gives way to vict’ry,
    I’ll see the lights of glory and I’ll know He lives!

    Because He lives, I can face tomorrow,
    Because He lives, all fear is gone;
    Because I know He holds the future,
    And life is worth the living,
    Just because He lives!


April 19, 2009 at 3:28 pm Leave a comment

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